I was alone; I was falling in a bottomless pit of darkness. Some of it my own, some of it external. I wanted to get out of it, I tried holding on to some rocks while falling into this pit only to bruise my wrists. I was blinded and any form of light would cause torment to my eyes. I would shut them tight to keep away from the light. In such darkness and loneliness, I cried one day and I called out to the listener. The one who listens to everything I asked him WHY? I asked him HOW LONG? He reverted back with the same questions in my heart. I asked Him if I give Him my hand will He hold it tight. He asked me the same question.
That is when I opened my eyes to the light. That is when My Lord my Allah grabbed me. The light that was blinding became the exact thing that was soothing me. I stumbled, I cheated and I repeated but he kept his word. He cleansed my dirty black heart and he showed me a path, the only way, a straight path. Even now I stumble, I fall but then again I stand tall because He gave me his word and I gave him mine. My Rabb my Creator is the one who gives food to a tiny insect, living inside a tiny rock under a mountain. How could that Rabb not see me and leave me on my own? I read Surah Duha and there is a verse that says: ‘And Your Rabb will give you and you will be satisfied’. He showed me light like he showed Younus (PBUH) light inside the stomach of a whale. Allah is the greatest, THE SUPREME, THE KINDEST. All you have to do is ask. Ask as you’ve never asked, cry as you’ve never cried, admit as you’ve never admitted and then see how He responds, and see how He never leaves you alone even when you’re alone.